My baby Girl

I have today off from work. I've spent the whole morning cleaning and doing laundry (which is normal for me on my days off). I got some Subway for my hubby and me and took it to him at work. I ordered some checks online. Any other time this is a totally normal day for me. Today was a little different than days in the past though. Every time I sit down this miracle inside of me Kicks and moves in all different directions. Its a feeling I've grown very fond of. God in His Glorious Splendor thought of a way to start the bonding process early between mom and baby. I feel bad for my hubby sometimes b/c he will never experience this. God has once again overwhelmed me by His Love. It's amazing.

Well I only have 10 weeks left, roughly, of being pregnant. I can't believe it. In many ways I feel I'm not ready for this, and in many ways I feel that I am. I am totally ready to give birth, but not getting sleep I need... I don't know about this. It will be a brand new chapter that I AM ready to start in on. God has great plans for this baby girl and I can't wait to see what they are!!

Today I'm thankful for my Freedom. Freedom to worship, to own my own home, to marry whomever I choose and to keep my precious baby.

Freedom to Serve the God I choose to serve. Freedom to pick my own friends. Freedom to choose.

I'm so thankful for everything this country offers me. I'm happy God chose to put me here in this town, with these people, to meet my husband, and raise a family. God is so amazing.

Claiming Confidence

It's funny how life can change in an instant. Even when you are hoping you will hear the answer you want to hear, and you do! God is so faithful. All of my life, all I have ever wanted was to be a mother and a wife. To stay at home, do all the "home-maker" things.. somehow God has led me in a different direction for the time being. I sometimes think that I have it all figured out, and I can just go ahead and quit my job any time now, but God is reminding me that maybe He's not through with me yet at my job. I believe I was called there for a reason. Wether it was to meet

the man of my dreams :) or bring someone else to Christ. I would SO love to quit, but I keep thinking of one person that maybe God wants me to try harder to witness to them.

All the worship songs I love to listen to say things like, "With Everything" , and I just sing it out, get all emotional, but am I really living it? I know God is calling me to something Greater than I already am. That's just a given in my mind. He always wants more. But why is it so hard?

God is preparing me for Motherhood. I want to be a Rock, a safe place, an example

in my child's life. Surrender is a key thought in my mind right now. God can't use me if I won't let Him. I want my baby to see God first in my life. No hang-ups. No insecurities. My husband is so wonderful in talking with me about this. He always tells me that however I am, that is what the baby will see, and probably eventually be like. I want to be Confident, Loving and Caring. NO hang-ups! NO insecurities!

It's funny how life can change in an instant. God is preparing me. I'm ready.