This is my last day being pregnant with Ezmae. I'm gonna be real, I'm kind of relieved. I've been pretty uncomfortable these past few weeks, it will be nice to have little things back. Like a normal sized bladder, non-swollen feet, this annoying stretching pain in my upper abdomen whenever I lay down will be gone, and really to just NOT be achy. Now that I'm done complaining, let me share how I'm feeling right now.
My first feeling is uncertainty. I'm not extremely worried, or feeling sick with anxiety, I'm just unsure how it will all go. How I will feel when we actually go into the OR and start the whole thing. Unsure how Eliza will feel when we come home, and so much of my time is "demanded" by baby. Unsure how my feelings of Post-Partum "depression" will be this time. I'm praying for lots of SUNSHINE and nice weather so I can have my windows open, b/c that always makes me feel good. I'm praying recovery goes well. Really, with Eliza, my recovery took quite a while. My tailbone was bruised so badly, among other things, I couldn't sit comfortably for about 2 weeks. It was not fun. My DR told me after 2 weeks I should be feeling much better, so I'm anxious to compare the 2 recoveries. Just for my own personal knowledge. Not so I can tell people this and that.
I'm sure all these feelings are perfectly normal for your second baby. After all, I've done it all before, so I kind of know how I will be feeling. Just praying its going to be a lot better then I expect. I do have Eliza to bring me Joy and of course, a new baby girl. Hubby will be home for 2 1/2 weeks, and I'm sure I will have lots of texts from friends and visitors. I know I will not be alone, especially in my God. He will never forsake me or let me feel alone. I'm sure my days will be filled with lots of Dora and Diego. Hopefully I can get Eliza to venture into some new shows and movies.
Now that I've rambled for a while, that's basically it. I can't believe it's tomorrow. 18 hours from now. Wow. Maybe reality will set in tomorrow morning when I have to get up at 4-4:15. Pray for me!!! And for our family. Tomorrow begins a new chapter in our lives. I can't wait to see what it holds!! :)